Well, it's that time again. Yes, that time of the month. Grr. A time where I can and most likely do get sidetracked with all my diet plans.
I have been keeping in mind my mantra: I choose me. I choose me. I choose me.
I have not had candy. That is a plus. Not even a piece of dark chocolate. I did however have a Labor Day get together and made some carne asada, Mexican rice and black beans, with guacamole and salsa. Carne asada also had peppers in it as well. I guess I just feel so guilty for Mexican food, with the guacamole and sour cream. But, I did not over do it. It's not that I am eating too badly. I haven't really been eating in excess. However, I need to fit in some veggies.
Yesterday, I think I really may have overdone it with pizza. I did not feel like cooking because my cramps were excessive and would not go away. I asked Bart to fix us some quesadilla's. He said he would. But then it got late and he opted to order us a veggie pizza with pepperoni instead. We order a small and share it. But, I should have stopped at a couple of pizza's and then make a salad. But, as I said, I wasn't feeling well. So, I ate until I was satisfied. Four pieces later, I just felt satisfied. The pieces weren't long, as it was a small pizza. But, still, I shouldn't have eaten four pieces. It's just when I am in my period, I get ravenous feeling. I did have only water with my dinner. So, I am eliminating calories that way. Plus I had been drinking it all day. The only other thing I had was coffee in the morning. So I guess I chose right in some ways. When I think of drinking soda, I think, "what I am putting into my body?". And then I think about soda being really sticky when it is spilled and it dries. Then I think, "I'm putting THAT into my body? Yuck! " There are times when I want a couple of sips of one, just for the taste. But, just a couple of sips, cause I don't want to put that much gunk in my body. Water is the way to go. Pure water.
I still have not signed up for Zoo group classes. I can feel my fat giggling when I move, and it sucks and it's gross. I should at least go for a walk today. I do need to get into a regular fitness routine. Something I can do after I lose weight too. Like I said in another post, I don't want to just lose weight. I want a lifestyle change. A lifetime change, something I can do everyday and not feel stressed about trying to incorporate something too hard into my daily routine.
It's a process and a daily struggle. But, I am going to keep in going. Because, I choose me. I have to do it. I am worth it. I choose me.
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
Moving In the Right Direction
This was written last week at work in WORD and emailed it to myself. Probably 8/28/13.
So, yesterday I felt quite accomplished. I was starting to feel a little anxious during the day. Problems with a shipment of my daughter’s phone and just really missing her. Anyhow, the thought crossed my mind to go get a taco or something. Then it turned to, well maybe just one burrito won’t hurt. I stopped myself in my tracks, and I remembered my motto for myself. I choose me. That is very powerful to me. I’ve never chosen me before. I choose to feed myself healthy foods to make my body feel good.
Last night for dinner though, I stopped and got Chinese food for dinner. Not the healthiest, but it wasn’t loaded with cheese..?!?! J I had sweet and sour shrimp and some fried appetizers. I ate until I felt full, which was not good. Cause by the time I went to bed, I felt over full. I definitely learned something. I must measure my food. Just because my brain hasn’t caught up with my stomach doesn’t mean I haven’t had enough. Though I could have let this get to me and totally pigged out more, just cause “why bother”, I didn’t. I have a new attitude now. Today is a new day, with endless possibilities. I started out with more eating healthy. Half a bagel, some low-fat cottage cheese with fruit on top and coffee. And right now, I am chowing down on a salad from Whole Foods, with vinegar and balsamic vinegar on top. Plus, while I was there, I picked up three pieces of fruit for me to gnaw on while I am at work and some non-fat yogurt. And tonight, I will make a veggie stir-fry for dinner. Better than the fried rice and sweet and sour shrimp I had last night. I feel like I am getting somewhere. Like I will accomplish my goal of living healthy.
Also today, I really was getting motivated for exercising. I thought, you know, people do it all the time, start slow running – and then little by little they go a little further each time. There is no reason for me not to start slow running. And I even thought to myself, what am I doing to myself? There are many people in this world that do not have legs, or the use of their legs. Here I am with full use of my legs, and I choose to sit on my butt and complain that exercise hurts. Or complain because my equipment squeaks. Those are dumb reasons. True I do have a condition called Chondromalacia Patella, where the knee does not line up with the femur. Very painful, dull ache sometimes. Actually, I could just be standing there and twist the wrong way, and feel my knee and my femur separating. That itself is not painful, but it’s just weird.
So, I started looking up on the internet what I could do to help me be able to run with this condition. All signs point to, not a good idea. I could hurt myself even more. But, that is not going to stop me. When I was working out before, my trainer had me strengthen my thighs by doing squats. So, I will do that. My stomach needs to be strengthened. Well, let’s just say my core needs to be strengthened. When I was working out with my trainer before, he had me doing planks and sit-ups. So, I will do that. And according to my trainer, he said I can never get too much of a work out on core, so I could do them every day if I so choose. But, to be able to lose my belly fat, sit-ups and planks alone will not work. I have to address that with a cardio workout. So, what to do about that? Ok, so with the condition I have, it turns out walking is really good for you. Plus, there is a club down by my hubby’s work that has group classes. Classes like Yoga and core strengthening, zumba. They sound fun. 10 classes is $60. I will join that so that I can stay active and get this show on the road. I will dedicate my workouts to all the people that either have no legs or their legs are not functional. I will at least walk. I can do that. I can do that. I can do it for me and for those people.
So, yesterday I felt quite accomplished. I was starting to feel a little anxious during the day. Problems with a shipment of my daughter’s phone and just really missing her. Anyhow, the thought crossed my mind to go get a taco or something. Then it turned to, well maybe just one burrito won’t hurt. I stopped myself in my tracks, and I remembered my motto for myself. I choose me. That is very powerful to me. I’ve never chosen me before. I choose to feed myself healthy foods to make my body feel good.
Last night for dinner though, I stopped and got Chinese food for dinner. Not the healthiest, but it wasn’t loaded with cheese..?!?! J I had sweet and sour shrimp and some fried appetizers. I ate until I felt full, which was not good. Cause by the time I went to bed, I felt over full. I definitely learned something. I must measure my food. Just because my brain hasn’t caught up with my stomach doesn’t mean I haven’t had enough. Though I could have let this get to me and totally pigged out more, just cause “why bother”, I didn’t. I have a new attitude now. Today is a new day, with endless possibilities. I started out with more eating healthy. Half a bagel, some low-fat cottage cheese with fruit on top and coffee. And right now, I am chowing down on a salad from Whole Foods, with vinegar and balsamic vinegar on top. Plus, while I was there, I picked up three pieces of fruit for me to gnaw on while I am at work and some non-fat yogurt. And tonight, I will make a veggie stir-fry for dinner. Better than the fried rice and sweet and sour shrimp I had last night. I feel like I am getting somewhere. Like I will accomplish my goal of living healthy.
Also today, I really was getting motivated for exercising. I thought, you know, people do it all the time, start slow running – and then little by little they go a little further each time. There is no reason for me not to start slow running. And I even thought to myself, what am I doing to myself? There are many people in this world that do not have legs, or the use of their legs. Here I am with full use of my legs, and I choose to sit on my butt and complain that exercise hurts. Or complain because my equipment squeaks. Those are dumb reasons. True I do have a condition called Chondromalacia Patella, where the knee does not line up with the femur. Very painful, dull ache sometimes. Actually, I could just be standing there and twist the wrong way, and feel my knee and my femur separating. That itself is not painful, but it’s just weird.
So, I started looking up on the internet what I could do to help me be able to run with this condition. All signs point to, not a good idea. I could hurt myself even more. But, that is not going to stop me. When I was working out before, my trainer had me strengthen my thighs by doing squats. So, I will do that. My stomach needs to be strengthened. Well, let’s just say my core needs to be strengthened. When I was working out with my trainer before, he had me doing planks and sit-ups. So, I will do that. And according to my trainer, he said I can never get too much of a work out on core, so I could do them every day if I so choose. But, to be able to lose my belly fat, sit-ups and planks alone will not work. I have to address that with a cardio workout. So, what to do about that? Ok, so with the condition I have, it turns out walking is really good for you. Plus, there is a club down by my hubby’s work that has group classes. Classes like Yoga and core strengthening, zumba. They sound fun. 10 classes is $60. I will join that so that I can stay active and get this show on the road. I will dedicate my workouts to all the people that either have no legs or their legs are not functional. I will at least walk. I can do that. I can do that. I can do it for me and for those people.
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