Little Set Back

Well, it's that time again.  Yes, that time of the month.  Grr.  A time where I can and most likely do get sidetracked with all my diet plans. 

I have been keeping in mind my mantra:  I choose me.  I choose me.  I choose me.

I have not had candy.  That is a plus.  Not even a piece of dark chocolate.  I did however have a Labor Day get together and made some carne asada, Mexican rice and black beans, with guacamole and salsa.  Carne asada also had peppers in it as well.  I guess I just feel so guilty for Mexican food, with the guacamole and sour cream.  But, I did not over do it.  It's not that I am eating too badly.  I haven't really been eating in excess. However, I need to fit in some veggies. 

Yesterday, I think I really may have overdone it with pizza.  I did not feel like cooking because my cramps were excessive and would not go away.  I asked Bart to fix us some quesadilla's.  He said he would. But then it got late and he opted to order us a veggie pizza with pepperoni instead.  We order a small and share it.  But, I should have stopped at a couple of pizza's and then make a salad.  But, as I said, I wasn't feeling well.  So, I ate until I was satisfied. Four pieces later, I just felt satisfied.  The pieces weren't long, as it was a small pizza.  But, still, I shouldn't have eaten four pieces.  It's just when I am in my period, I get ravenous feeling.  I did have only water with my dinner.  So, I am eliminating calories that way.  Plus I had been drinking it all day. The only other thing I had was coffee in the morning.  So I guess I chose right in some ways.  When I think of drinking soda, I think, "what I am putting into my body?".  And then I think about soda being really sticky when it is spilled and it dries.  Then I think, "I'm putting THAT into my body?  Yuck! " There are times when I want a couple of sips of one, just for the taste.  But, just a couple of sips, cause I don't want to put that much gunk in my body.  Water is the way to go.  Pure water. 

I still have not signed up for Zoo group classes.  I can feel my fat giggling when I move, and it sucks and it's gross.  I should at least go for a walk today.  I do need to get into a regular fitness routine.  Something I can do after I lose weight too.  Like I said in another post, I don't want to just lose weight.  I want a lifestyle change.  A lifetime change, something I can do everyday and not feel stressed about trying to incorporate something too hard into my daily routine.

It's a process and a daily struggle.  But, I am going to keep in going.  Because, I choose me.  I have to do it.  I am worth it.  I choose me.