This was written last week at work in WORD and emailed it to myself. Probably 8/28/13.
So, yesterday I felt quite accomplished. I was starting to feel a little anxious during the day. Problems with a shipment of my daughter’s phone and just really missing her. Anyhow, the thought crossed my mind to go get a taco or something. Then it turned to, well maybe just one burrito won’t hurt. I stopped myself in my tracks, and I remembered my motto for myself. I choose me. That is very powerful to me. I’ve never chosen me before. I choose to feed myself healthy foods to make my body feel good.
Last night for dinner though, I stopped and got Chinese food for dinner. Not the healthiest, but it wasn’t loaded with cheese..?!?! J I had sweet and sour shrimp and some fried appetizers. I ate until I felt full, which was not good. Cause by the time I went to bed, I felt over full. I definitely learned something. I must measure my food. Just because my brain hasn’t caught up with my stomach doesn’t mean I haven’t had enough. Though I could have let this get to me and totally pigged out more, just cause “why bother”, I didn’t. I have a new attitude now. Today is a new day, with endless possibilities. I started out with more eating healthy. Half a bagel, some low-fat cottage cheese with fruit on top and coffee. And right now, I am chowing down on a salad from Whole Foods, with vinegar and balsamic vinegar on top. Plus, while I was there, I picked up three pieces of fruit for me to gnaw on while I am at work and some non-fat yogurt. And tonight, I will make a veggie stir-fry for dinner. Better than the fried rice and sweet and sour shrimp I had last night. I feel like I am getting somewhere. Like I will accomplish my goal of living healthy.
Also today, I really was getting motivated for exercising. I thought, you know, people do it all the time, start slow running – and then little by little they go a little further each time. There is no reason for me not to start slow running. And I even thought to myself, what am I doing to myself? There are many people in this world that do not have legs, or the use of their legs. Here I am with full use of my legs, and I choose to sit on my butt and complain that exercise hurts. Or complain because my equipment squeaks. Those are dumb reasons. True I do have a condition called Chondromalacia Patella, where the knee does not line up with the femur. Very painful, dull ache sometimes. Actually, I could just be standing there and twist the wrong way, and feel my knee and my femur separating. That itself is not painful, but it’s just weird.
So, I started looking up on the internet what I could do to help me be able to run with this condition. All signs point to, not a good idea. I could hurt myself even more. But, that is not going to stop me. When I was working out before, my trainer had me strengthen my thighs by doing squats. So, I will do that. My stomach needs to be strengthened. Well, let’s just say my core needs to be strengthened. When I was working out with my trainer before, he had me doing planks and sit-ups. So, I will do that. And according to my trainer, he said I can never get too much of a work out on core, so I could do them every day if I so choose. But, to be able to lose my belly fat, sit-ups and planks alone will not work. I have to address that with a cardio workout. So, what to do about that? Ok, so with the condition I have, it turns out walking is really good for you. Plus, there is a club down by my hubby’s work that has group classes. Classes like Yoga and core strengthening, zumba. They sound fun. 10 classes is $60. I will join that so that I can stay active and get this show on the road. I will dedicate my workouts to all the people that either have no legs or their legs are not functional. I will at least walk. I can do that. I can do that. I can do it for me and for those people.
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